It struck me today as i was driving towards the hospital that the human body is an extraordinary thing!
We all walk around not thinking of the effort our brain has to put in to enable us to put one foot in front off the other.
We breathe freely without thinking how we know to draw the life saving oxygen in.
We eat freely savouring the flavours over a fancy dinner or if you’re more like me stuffing whatever comes to hand to satisfy our hunger.
We use our eyes every single moment of consciousness but most of
us arent even really seeing what we are looking at.
We take our bodys for granted every single day without a thought of how we would cope if we lost control over it.
I hope no one else i know ever has to find out what its like to lose the control.
Hubby is still in hospital. Today is day 14. He’s angry. I’m angry. The kids are..well if I’m honest they are ok as it seems children are a lot more accepting of situations. But they miss thier Dad.
We are currently waiting for radiotherapy to zap these brain tumours into submission. We also still don’t have a name for the tumours although I’m thinking i might name them myself in the absence of the biopsy results. I’ll have a think 😉
The steroids that hubby has been put on are little short of miraculous. The pressure in the brain has been reduced enabling him to be able to walk with support. They have stopped the bone crushing headaches. They have reduced the tremors to almost zero.
Better than all that they have increased his appetite. Almost to the point where i cant keep up with the amount of food he wants.
We know that the steroids are just masking the symptoms and that the real medicine is the radiotherapy but i truly believe that feeling better in yourself is half the battle.
So whether this is ‘fake’ feeling better or not it’ll do for now.
The endurance that this man shows every single day truly amazes me. The battering his body has taken over the last almost 3 years shows a core of strength that most people can only dream of having.
The survival instinct is in all of us and watching him every single day is proof of that.
So if you think you’re having a bad day try and remember that someone somewhere is fighting to stay alive stuck in a room without fresh air or the freedom they desire and be truly thankful for the steps you take unaided the air that you breathe and the world around you.